I am scared to death, please someone help me. Any advice would be extremely helpful. 

Any thoughts on what this is?

My last sexual encounter was 2 years ago and my last test was in November of 2015. However, on Sept 30th I fooled around with a man. Now I do not mean sexual wise, but we were both naked in bed together. We didn't have vaginal or oral intercourse. For the longest time i was so concerned that his penis might of touched my genitals, which i was i got tested twice after him. The last test was at 6 weeks and was negative at a value below <.2. My last oral outbreak was three years and before I knew i had hsv 1 i accidentally picked at it and touched my vagina, but by this time my index value was well above 8.0, which is when i discovered the outbreaks were cold sores. I trust your advice when you say that I did not pass this to myself. I believe my first oral outbreak was when I was 12, i got a cluster of blisters under my nose and then it returned again 3 years ago. My proctologist and the urgent care doctor states that it is a fissure. They also said I have multiple ones from hard bowel movements, but saw nothing herpetic. When i saw my regular doctor today she said she saw a red irritated area with possible vesicles. When i went to the urgent care doctor, she said she saw no redness or vesicles other than on the fissure, but she said that's to be expected. My primary doctor is making no sense.. at first she said she saw redness and bumps, then when i had her look again she said she didn't see what she first thought she saw. I asked her about the tears and she said she saw none. She said it looked like i had dermatitis or a rash. Now, its obvious i'm a hypochondriac and i have not seen any red rash otherwise i would of been at the doctor a long time ago. i do have redness around my anus, but it's been this ways for years. thats never changed. But my proctologist and the urgent care doctor both saw multiple fissures and tears. I'm just so confused how i could have herpes. 

the tears bleed any time i look in the mirror or have a bowel movement and have been there for 12 days now. I'm just so lost. I'm going insane. What do i believe Terri?

I'm so fearful that i contracted hsv 1 oral and genitally at the same time, but it wouldn't make sense because i do get oral outbreaks but have never had a genital one. When i got my first cold sore, i was a virgin- never had oral or vaginal intercourse. Im just so concerned and confused :((

Why do you believe I should not worry about having hsv 1 genitally?

But yes, my last antibody test for hsv 2 was in November, right before thanksgiving and it came back negative with an index value of <.2. This was a year & a half after my last sexual intercourse exposure and 6 weeks after the naked bed situation. 

When the doctor did my swab yesterday, I just started my period and thought I saw blood on the swab. Will this have any affect on my results? Because obviously I know i'm positive for hsv 1- have been for several years, and don't know if the blood will cause a positive result.