I went on a trip to india alone. I remember I was so tired because of travelling. But I also remember I didn’t took any medication or something for sleep. 

At night, before sleeping I remember locking the door. But now I panic thinking that what if the door was not locked properly and someone entered the room and raped me without me being aware. I also got UTI (cystitis) after 4 days. 

That day When I woke up in morning, I was feeling fresh and I had all my clothes on my body. But this thought of rape came in my mind after a week. I have hiv phobia since last 3 months. 

Do you think I can get raped without me being aware? Or someone can add some sedative in my food without me being aware to rape me? 

I reviewed your two recent discussions with Dr. Hook. Your HIV phobia was on display in those discussions and this is clearly an even more serious manifestation of the same psychological problem. Of course I cannot judge whether sex occurred without your knowledge:  you were there and I wasn't. But it seems exceedingly unlikely. And I think intellectually you understand it did not happen, even if you remain concerned at an emotional level. It also is pretty much impossible to be so sedated you would not recall sex but otherwise feel well and sleep normally, and that your clothing would not be disordered.

I advise no testing for HIV or other STDs; and that you promptly seek professional counseling. These are highly abnormal thoughts that suggest a rather serious mental health problem. I suggest it from compassion, not criticism. In any case, there is no STD/HIV issue here, and those are the only topics we address. But I hope these comments are helpful.

HHH, MD

Thank you so much for your reply. 

You mean to say that it is impossible for me to sleep through penetrative sex ? I would be wide awake if someone tried to do that ? 

Please assure me that I do not need hiv test for this. I’m too much worried. 

These seem very irrational thoughts. See my comments above about professional counseling. I will have no further comments about it on this forum.

God bless you for all the good work you do.